I should really start writing some more, but I have no fucking clue what to write about these days.
Its the same old, same old...however, I am stressing a little...well...A HELL OF A LOT MORE since I found out that Caitlin doesn't have two weeks before her course starts...she has a mere 5 DAYS!
My god. This has put me under so much pressure.
Everything has all been my fault. If I hadn't have quit my job in the fucking first place we wouldn't be in this mess. I hate it. I hate how I've screwed everything up. I just wish I could go back to the day that I quit...and perhaps...NOT have quit. But, sadly, I can't do that. There's no such thing as time travel and it sucks.


I want to change my life. I want to be a better person. Well, that's what I wanted to do this year anyway and instead, I've done exactly the opposite. I've made mistake upon mistake upon mistake and there's no way to change it.


I don't know how to be a better person. I just simply don't know how.


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