i've been completely disowned by my family.
my mother doesn't give a shit that i disloacted my toes last night (well, honestly who would...? but thats not my point)...she's trying to dictate my sisters life by telling her to block me on the internet site we use to communticate, and then she wonders why i call up wanting to talk to her...
its not fair...
yea i wasnt the best kid...but hey, was i ever??
i havent just taken all the help and thrown it back in your face...ive used it to survive...used it to try get myself a new job...used it to try straighten out my life...but yea, i've fucked that one up yet again...

i hate it...i hate myself...i hate life...