I should really start writing some more, but I have no fucking clue what to write about these days.
Its the same old, same old...however, I am stressing a little...well...A HELL OF A LOT MORE since I found out that Caitlin doesn't have two weeks before her course starts...she has a mere 5 DAYS!
My god. This has put me under so much pressure.
Everything has all been my fault. If I hadn't have quit my job in the fucking first place we wouldn't be in this mess. I hate it. I hate how I've screwed everything up. I just wish I could go back to the day that I quit...and perhaps...NOT have quit. But, sadly, I can't do that. There's no such thing as time travel and it sucks.


I want to change my life. I want to be a better person. Well, that's what I wanted to do this year anyway and instead, I've done exactly the opposite. I've made mistake upon mistake upon mistake and there's no way to change it.


I don't know how to be a better person. I just simply don't know how.


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I've just realised that...I don't have anyone in my life except caitlin...
and I have nothing to do during the day...
I'm so lonely...and I hate it :(

i hate it when we talk about the future...

you know i live in the moment...

and when you talk about the end of ‘us’...

it breaks my heart...

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I don’t know what to write…

I guess I’m just scared is all…

I'm all smiles :)

The last few days have been really good and have given me a really great feeling...just about everything.

I feel like I'm happier and can look forward to the next day again.

Mainly thanks to you, my darling. Our talk the other night makes me appreciate you a hell of a lot more because you've actually opened up to me and I understand what you're feeling. I just can't wait till you come home from work etc. Most of the time, I just wanna run to you. I don't wanna wait.

I'm just so happy :)



WEEPING ANGEL CAT!!!