Yeah

and that's why I smile

It's been a while

since every day and everything has

felt this right

and now you're turning all around

and suddenly you're all I need

The reason why I smile

I feel awful...I can never say or do the right things. I treat you like shit and its not fair. I hate it. 
I got upset because you didn't wave...how pathetic, right?
I love you and I'm sorry for all the wrongs I've done :(

"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily..."

-Napoléon Bonaparte

"...Don't know, don't know if I can do this on my own
Why do you have to leave me?
It seems I'm losing something deep inside of me
Hold on, hold onto me

Now I see, now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everybody hurts, everybody screams
Everybody feels this way and that's ok

Ladadadada that's OK

It feels like nothing really matters anymore
When you're gone I can't breathe
And I know you never meant to make me feel this way
This can't be happening to me

Now I see, now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everybody hurts, everybody screams
Everybody feels this way and that's ok

Ladadadada that's OK
Lalalala

So many questions, so much on my mind
So many answers I can't find
I wish that I could turn back the time
I wonder why

Everybody hurts some days
Everybody hurts some days

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everybody hurts, everybody screams
Everybody feels this way and that's ok

Ladadadada that's OK
Lalalalala that's OK

Everybody hurts some days
It's OK to be afraid
Everbody hurts some days 
But we all feel OK
Everybody feels this way
But it'll be OK
Can somebody take me away
To a better place
Everybody feels this way
It's OK

It's OK, ladadada it's ok
Lalalala, it's OK..."

Fake Orgasms...I caught you! How many have you faked?

D) All of the above?

Why Would She Fake It?

There are a number of reasons why a woman would fake an orgasm. The first is simply that she doesn’t want to hurt you ego when you’re unable to satisfy her in the sack – that’s right, she finds it easier to writhe around in pretend pleasure than tell you where you’re going wrong!

Alcohol can also cause women to fake orgasms – yes it lowers inhibitions but it also makes sexual arousal less achievable. And if the sex is with a new partner, she may decide to fake it when she realises the earth isn’t going to move for her, rather than risk him feeling inadequate.

Some men have unrealistic expectations and put pressure on their partners to come every time they have sex – and while feeling pressured isn’t likely to bring on the ‘big O’ (women need to be relaxed to climax) it is likely to awaken her inner actress!

Warning Signs

So how can you tell if your partner is faking it? It’s actually surprisingly difficult to tell the real thing from the imposter – but there are some tell-tale signs to look out for.

It’s probably not escaped your attention that when women are turned on they become moist down there – and a woman cannot fake that. So, if when you touch or kiss between her legs it’s bone dry - you can assume that she’s not turned on. If she’s making all of the right noises, it’s likely she is trying to speed up the sex and escape from your bed as quickly as possible.

If her orgasm comes right out of the blue and she seems to overact (you barely even got into your groove before she was screaming and moaning) then you’re either extremely talented or the chances are, you didn’t really rock her world.

As a women rides on the crest of an orgasm, a number of things happen that she can’t control; her breathing and heart rate increase, her body temperature rises, she might become flushed in the cheeks and on the chest, her nipples become erect, the clitoris swells, the lips of the vagina darken in colour as they are engorged with blood, and she loses control (hence the orgasm face). As she comes you may even be able to feel her vagina contracting around your penis. If, however, she remained cool, calm and collected throughout, and didn’t even break a sweat, it’s likely that you are in the presence of an actress!

There are also signs directly after the climax - women usually look slightly dazzled after a knee trembler and will want to stay close and cuddle or fall asleep – so if she jumps right out of bed and starts cooking, cleaning or watching her favourite TV show, there’s a good chance that what you witnessed wasn’t the real deal.

So what should you do if you suspect that your partner is faking it? Open up the communication airwaves. Don’t accuse her of anything but try to find out if she fakes her orgasms with you and if she does, why. Let her know that she doesn’t have to do that and that you want her to get as much pleasure from your sexual relationship as you do. Tell her that you are willing to learn how to please her and admit that you realise that she won’t climax every time you have sex. Honesty is the best policy – otherwise how are you supposed to know if the sex is on fire or if she is just puffing smoke?

"Keep calm and 

...Carry on..."

God. My paranoia can get the best of me sometimes. I hate it. 

I've calmed down...for now at least...

I just hate Sundays. I don't wanna lose you baby.